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Feb. 23rd, 2007

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A couple small things I've learned the last couple of days:
1.) Oatmeal expands under high temperatures and will overflow if you leave it in the microwave long enough yeah, that was fun to clean
2.) You can sneeze in your sleep I used to think if I sneezed while I'd be trying to sleep that my cover was blown that I was still awake... just trying to fall asleep
3.) If you triple a recipe check with a professional/someone who knows stuff about baking on what ingredients you do not increase otherwise this can lead to a hidden underlying bitter taste to those sweet fluffy cinnamon rolls you made last night
4.) A small triple-triple (3 sugar, 3 cream) is good enough for me I like my coffee suuuuuhweeeeeeet
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Jan. 4th, 2007

the one and only me

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I feel like a failure.
I feel like I spent 3 years trying to be something I could never be. Or, maybe, if I tried even harder.. I could be. Maybe, if I had lost weight or kept on a healthy lifestyle when I came here things would've been different.
Things would've turned out as they were meant to be.
I'd be working a good job now.
I'd be married now.
I wouldn't be stuck.
They say putting on weight affects your mood, maybe being overweight affected mine?
Ugh, one can wish.
I'd never know.
At least I learned one thing after 3 years, I get overwhelmed very easily. I wish I knew that before I spent 3 years trying to be something that wasn't me. They never let us know the true role of the job for over a year. We created routines because of this and then all of a sudden broke us free of them and laid the true responsibilities and roles of the job while still making sure we were safe. For someone who likes a routine, being expected to handle such a change overnight was not easy.
I tried.
I really tried.
And sometimes I wish I tried even harder until my knuckles bled, until I felt like I could handle it anymore, until I felt dizzy. Back then I really thought I tried my hardest though.

Now, here I am starting over. Starting from scratch with what I should've stayed with in the beginning as a career. I wanted a challenge though. I wanted more money. Money became the bigger motivator as time went on though. Then, I didn't want to waste what I learned during those 3 years so I tried to stick with careers within that field, but they scared me. The pay was good though and money would not be wasted, but I would be suffering dearly. Now I know it was wrong of me to think that. Sucks to think had I stayed on track I would have the career I wanted from the beginning now. I wouldn't be just starting. I would be done.

I hate torturing myself with these thoughts, but this is me though.
I'm scared of what my future has in store for me now. I just hope it all works out in the end.
I feel like my life will really start when I turn 30, not 20 like everyone else. I'm past 20. And yet I'm just starting. I feel like such a failure because of that. Just starting life at 22.
I hope he is in my future.
I just hope... all problems will be resolved in the future, too.

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Mar. 10th, 2006

the one and only me

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I'm doing a friends cut.

My life might get nasty soon and it definitely needs some sorting,so I want only those close to me in my journal reading my personal thoughts.

Please don't take any offense to this if you are cut.You either never commented to my journal,your journal is practically extinct,or we just didn't click as friends.Good luck in your future.Please take me off your list as well.Thank you.

Dec. 28th, 2005

the one and only me

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I like how this community is for the highs and lows of a long-term relationship,so I'd like to join.I gotta promote though so here's my shot at it.If you're in a long-term relationship and I know a lot of people are on my list,heh,give it a try=)

Nov. 17th, 2005

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Animal lovers speak out!!!

Jim's sister goes on every now and then how pitbulls are bad dogs to have because of their temperaments.Yesterday she even went on to say that 3 pitbulls killed 6 people because they just snapped.She doesn't want her kids around pitbulls either,which her boyfriend's close friend is now an owner of from a previous bad intentions friend,i guess.Jim's sister's view basically is that a dog has an inborn temperament that cannot be changed and that all dogs in the breed with bad temperaments are dangerous.

Back when I was in community college in San Diego,my English teacher for my 2nd semester had an interesting view on this topic.
We had to do a research paper on heated topics,someone chose to research the banning of animals with bad temperaments.She went on to say she's friends with people who have dogs known to have bad temperaments.She's even gone to these people's houses and was scared of the dog.She said from her experience and talking to these people that the dog's breed doesn't decide the animals temperament,but their upbringing does.If an animal is born to an aggressive owner they will be that,too.Now,if they're taken away from this aggressive owner while they're young we didn't touch that topic.

And of course this leads to a poll...

Poll #614799 animal temperaments

What's your opinion on animals in general(house pets,reptiles,farm animals,safari animals,etc.) and temperament?

They are born with temperaments.
0(0.0%)
Their temperament is influenced by their environment.
7(53.8%)
Their temperament can change with lots of love and patience...and a better owner.
3(23.1%)
Temperament can be changed,but they should not be fully trusted.They can snap and revert.
3(23.1%)

What about dogs and temperaments?

I agree that certain breeds are dangerous and cannot be changed.
0(0.0%)
Their temperament is influenced by their environment
4(30.8%)
An animal can be changed with love and patience and a better owner.
4(30.8%)
Temperament can be changed,but they should not be fully trusted.They can snap and revert.
3(23.1%)
Other(comment below,please)
2(15.4%)

What about horses and temperaments?

I agree that certain breeds are dangerous and cannot be changed.
0(0.0%)
Their temperament is influenced by their environment.
4(33.3%)
An animal can be changed with love and patience and a better owner.
4(33.3%)
Temperament can be changed,but they should not be fully trusted.They can snap and revert.
3(25.0%)
Other(comment below,please)
1(8.3%)


Now,I'm going to give my brain a rest.I thought too hard on this entry and don't even know if I made sense,I hope I did.

Oct. 20th, 2005

the one and only me

Public Post

I've noticed that the number of Gmail invites I have keep on growing,so I decided to not let them sit there for much longer and to put them to some use...

I have 72 Gmail Invites up for grabs.
No more than 3 invites per person....because of such a high number of invites available.
Comment with your name and e-mail address if you want an account.

Sep. 29th, 2005

the one and only me

Going against what my Userinfo says

I feel bad about going against what my Userinfo states on cutting people,but I feel that this is something people must know.
I'm doing a friends cut to those who I don't feel a connection to.
Sorry,but with me being busy with Clinical and my future career I have limited time already and I just don't see friendship in our future.

Aug. 6th, 2005

the one and only me

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